Yes, I am aware that my blog is broken

It’s been an interesting few days, to say the least. Home the past weekend meant exposure to Strep throat, a nasty cold, the stomach flu and various other fun instances. Luckily it’s been a week and I’ve appeared to escape relatively unscathed.

Family discussions have tended to run towards my gramma recently, and how she’s losing her memory. We’re thinking Alzheimers, and so apparently are the doctors. Mom and I were talking the past few weekends about what happens next. There’s been discussions of her moving in with my family and selling her home. I guess we’ll see what happens, really, since only time will tell.

I’ve been dared to join a few … online dating services. So I did. I’m amused by the response thus far although I’ve done nothing with the responses received. I will admit that I’m not particularily thrilled by my single status, but I don’t mind it either? Besides, the lack of self-confidence is still telling me that I don’t deserve anyone anyway. Or that I’m not good enough for anyone. So that’s making it a little more difficult to take seriously.

I spent a lot more money today then I intended to. But I have new CDs to listen to and this makes me happy. Besides. It’s payday. That’s my excuse?

Tomorrow is the Chantal concert with Lauren. I’m all excited already! We’re meeting for dinner first, then off to see Chantal and Raine. And while I won’t lie and say I’m not more thrilled to be seeing Raine, I really am excited to see Chantal as well. The best part though? Will be that it’ll be with Lauren.

My March trip to Texas is mostly set. Well. The plane tickets are booked and paid for. But there’s an underlying tension there still with all the events that have passed and I’m a little worried. Excited to be going, but worried too.

I don’t remember what I was going to add.  Couldn’t of been important.

The stresses of it all are going to drive me insane.

It’s been a frustrating few days at work. I say that like it’s Wednesday or Thursday, not Monday. It’s been a frustrating few days, period.

I’m suppose to be weaning myself off my splint, seeing as I never heard from the doctors about my wrist – which is suppose to be good news. So I left it at home (I honestly forgot it, I was in such a hurry to leave this morning) and I regretted it the entire day. My thumb still hasn’t stopped hurting and I’ve been splinted since I got home.

We’re incredibly behind at work. And the pressure to keep up is only at the beginning boiling point. Being short staffed sucks. And this is gonna be one hell of a long month with vacations. And, while I’m dying for those few days off that are coming, I’m gonna be dead by the end of the month.

I should attempt to sleep. Before I have another emotional outburst.

In the Heat of Summer Sunshine, I miss you

I don’t know what I’m thinking about today. My brain is scattered into hundreds of little sections. Earlier I was thinking about Texas. It didn’t help that I saw someone in a Cowboy hat at work. I think that’s what started it all, since the hat was similar to mine and everything. Hee I love my hat. So pretty and white.

Texas. Yes. This is going to be a wandering post, I think… Hence the scattered above. I was thinking about my trip. My trip to Texas to see Keiran was amazing. Too short, of course, but amazing none-the-less… I can’t believe that a month ago yesterday I was giving Keiran a hug, heading through the security gates then wandering around the airport sniffling (I saved the actual major cry for the bathroom, although a little kid asked me where it hurt when I was walking in…) waiting for what… 5 hours before my plane actually took off? Hello run-on sentence, pleased to me you. Anyway. Delayed flights, I’ve learned, annoy the HELL out of me. Especially when I’d rather not leave at all.

There are some pretty fantastic memories from that trip. Some moments have blurred together some, but it’s all still there.

Random buzzing dinner signals can be very frightening when you’re running on 2 hours of sleep after two very long days. Hahah and people aren’t so intimidating in real-life. I also cleared out most some of the Canadian CDs at this used CD store we went to. Must return the music home, damnit!

I discovered that I really enjoy clothes shopping with someone other than my mother! … That sounds like I don’t like clothes shopping with mom. I do. Mother really does know best sometimes. I just don’t like clothes shopping with what, almost all my other friends. Amazing what one “fat store” incident can do to you. But yes, anyway. That’s the way way past and yes I’m still bitter but I digress and it’s the wrong way. But the clothing stores! I am in love with some of them. I’m afraid I’m really truly a shop-a-holic now. The prices were pretty good too, even with the exchange.

Tubing was incredibly fun. Incredibly. I looove the water. And being able to spend time in the water with someone I adore, just chatting and relaxing and lazing away (with a few tumbles and stumbles and splashes, of course) was absolute heaven to me. I really am a water-baby and it’s a good thing I don’t live near the ocean or you’d never get me out of it.

Fossil Rim was cool. I’d never been that close to most of the animals before. I mean… I’ve seen giraffes and deer and zebras but never been able to… touch them. I also discovered that giraffes are very very big and scary up close, automatic windows can be mean :(, rear-view mirrors taste good, deer and other critters are persistant when it comes to getting food pellets, other people can be pretty damn stupid (and that includes park security) and that the best giggles can be heard when it’s just two girls in a car surrounded by animals.

Lifehouse was good. I love Jason Wade’s voice. It makes me melt in so many ways. It was a good show. And I was very thankful that we had seats. I think it would’ve been better had I not been so.. exhausted from Tubing and Fossil Rim and the entire exhausting two days before. 8 hours of sleep in two days plus a lot of physical activity (I usually get none) makes for a very tired Emily.

Downtown Dallas was sorta scary. It was fun to ride the train downtown. I love trains. But even then it was a little… scary in places. But the actual downtown had some pretty sections too. It felt very much like walking around some of the sections of town here. You’re not quite at ease, but you’re not completely on guard either. The Aquarium was totally cool though. I’ll admit that I’m surprised it’s just called Dallas World Aquarium when it’s more of a rainforest thing (of which I am absolutely in love with the waterfall inside) with an aquarium. I need to write more about the Aquarium and I will, eventually. It was one of my favourite places and so very pretty. I liked the quiet moments best though, watching the fishies, taking pictures, giggling over… stuff we’d comment on.

We spent a day in Fort Worth too, and we went to the Fort Worth Zoo and the Japanese Gardens and we drove around there some too. I like driving around places, although I can never remember where one place begins and the other ends, there’s so many pretty things you see just driving. We got ROARED at by the lion at the zoo. And I got sunburned (stupid forgetting that the sunscreen was in the cooler) and we both almost fell off the train. It’s a very nice zoo. Lots of animals to see. It amused me to no end to see all the kids oooh-ing and ahhh-ing over the black bears. They’re nothing special where I come from heh.

I think we managed to watch 6 or 7 movies while I was there too. MOVIES! That was our lazing time, our down time. Included playing with the many animals. I miss my kitty :( haha poor Windy is going to get two complexes, because I could never call her her name. It was always “kitty”. I actually miss being licked. And I forgot to give her a pet goodbye. :( that makes me sad.

I know that there’s much more for me to write about still. But you’re likely all bored by now anyway. The best part about the trip? Was just getting to go. Just getting to spend time with Keiran, strenghten our friendship.